i'm so fat.
wyhy am i a failure?
i went to the beach today.
lifted up my two-piece and felt like a fucking cow.


i want a boy so bad.
but im not good enough for anything.
im just not good enough.

why me?
i love ana.
i think were getting closer to eachother,
especially after yesterday when i didnt eat a single thing.
but today, today, she hates me.
i ate.
right before i ate i felt like i was going to pass out, ugh.
but i was working out for ana :)

it's the end of the fucking world.
watch me gain back everything i worked for.
the rest of the week im not eating.
the rest of the week im going running.
help me stay strong.
i need tips.
i need tricks.
i love ana.
it's the best thing that ever happened to me.

being depressed isn't as easy as you think.