urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:courage_x3 courage_x3 courage_x3 2008-05-26T23:41:28Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:courage_x3:1120 2008-05-26T23:41:28Z 2008-05-26T23:41:28Z i'm so fat.<br />wyhy am i a failure?<br />i went to the beach today.<br />lifted up my two-piece and felt like a fucking cow.<br /><br /><br />i want a boy so bad.<br />but im not good enough for anything.<br />im just not good enough.<br /><br />why me?<br />i love ana.<br />i think were getting closer to eachother,<br />especially after yesterday when i didnt eat a single thing.<br />but today, today, she hates me.<br />i ate.<br />right before i ate i felt like i was going to pass out, ugh.<br />but i was working out for ana :)<br /><br />it's the end of the fucking world.<br />watch me gain back everything i worked for.<br />the rest of the week im not eating.<br />the rest of the week im going running.<br />help me stay strong.<br />i need tips.<br />i need tricks.<br />i love ana.<br />it's the best thing that ever happened to me. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:courage_x3:685 2008-05-25T01:47:10Z 2008-05-25T01:47:10Z being depressed isn't as easy as you think.